Frozen Mind.

It’s been cold since my light faded away

Its cold,

So cold its touch folds,

Heaven is the last thing on my mind,

My angel isn’t even here,

So how am I suppose to be reminded of it,

My hands are freezing more,

By the passing second,

My mind is impatient

Praying for all this to end,

There’s a part of me missing

I can’t breathe right

Cold is how I was meant to be living?

I’m going to sleep with that question tonight,

How cruel is life,

Where’s the damn sun,

In past days it tortured me with heart

Today,

It’s my only salvation, my only one

How has my worlds changed

Now I can related to those who are dead

I’m still breathing but I’ll soon stop

I followed through with my word

I realized that even after death

It’s still cold.

© 2008-2010, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

Life’s Contract.

A day flies by and you’re still breathing

The air from this earth, all depending,

If there’s blood pumping in your heart

You will see the night to proceed with dreaming,

The only time when your mind is at peace with self,

Taking a break from all the emotions we have dealt,

The time where you cover yourself in smiles and laughter,

A dose of joy to prepare you for what comes after,

It can be considered the interlude of death

At the moment, we’re still able to catch our breath,

The picture we draw during those times

Are the sights we desire to see with our eyes,

At the expectations we set for our lives

We don’t pay full attention to the effects of death,

Simply because we fear that reality we know is coming

When we think of it, the fear is drowning

Our hopes to live without boundaries, it’s crazy

To see how it limits hearts including those of babies

What does it truly represent in this life?

How can you surpass the moment when we die?

If God is real, he will give us an answer at the gates

There is no heaven; nobody that has lived is a saint

It’s all been a way to control our fears

The only given belief that has given meaning to our tears.

© 2008-2010, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved

(Source: frostlegacies)

Sunrise.

At the moment that the sun rises

The light will shine over your face,

I will visualize you with an enormous smile

At every pace that you may take,

You will stand tall with an embracing heart

That preserves laughter’s joy,

Smiles, confidence carried at hand

Should be your unbreakable toy,

I visualize you utilizing it’s magic

Never a trick but a feeling–

Exercise it in your soul, filling your every vein

Your very presence alone is glistering,

The solar rays will bring your eyes a glow

So great they bring to life the emotion in them,

All reflecting the good nature a love portrays,

Your eyes are the peephole to another dimension,

I got lost in them,

Separated my doubts from truths,

Took my heart and rebuilt it too,

Revitalized my blood flow to adapt to you,

A part of me is a part of you–

We fulfilled the myth and found it to be true.

© 2008-2011, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

Finding Peace.

Say grace for the sunrise that has shined over your day

Speak out loud if possible, there’s no need for you to pray

Seek out the thoughts that have kept you in place

Sincerely embrace your emotion and picture God’s face,

Imagine the presence as you walk to school or drive to work

Don’t be so dramatic about it, don’t be berserk

Faith goes a long way when you believe in logic

Not limited to a cathedral, you alone can pay homage

When you add the drop of gratitude to the sea of doubts,

It makes sense, instead of asking “why” we ask “how”,

Has our faith risen to compete with our foolish expectations,

Lust overpowered truth and tragically turned it into hatred,

At the dawn of every sunrise some remain loyal to their faith,

That has taught them to value life and it’s people, never hate

The intuition that originated from the flip of a coin, the bid in ourselves we have set

Led by your own word and faith, you forgive but never forget, that’s my amen.

© 2008-2011, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

The Crime In The Roses.

(Source: frostlegacies)

Dear World.

I see her commitment,

she’s a loyalist,

One of the few who are left,

Aged sixteen,

With a whole life ahead

With many visions that repeatedly play in her head,

Grew up with one older brother that taught her the game

Only a human being, still made mistakes

At times, she portrayed herself living in a theater,

Stuck on romantic hopes she sees in the movies but aren’t near her,

She feels unadaptive to the vast social world

Strives for an alpha male that will make her feel like the only girl

Swears to convince herself that nothing ever goes her way,

Sleeps with that thought and carries it with her the next day,

I see her,

Cursing at herself for foolish wishes

Questions the purpose for her existence,

When her friends act like bitches,

Only if you knew what she held inside her wounded chest,

She hides her stress behind a long black dress,

At night she whispers her emotions at her bedroom wall

Her self esteem falls when boys just want to get past her drawers,

She feels like all is completely lost, with nobody to trust

Sees the world covered in fog and everyone is a liar,

Time regulated her to label everyone an ignorant, heartless soul

Fed upon the worst, growing an ego that maintained cold,

Having a hard time finding herself, she locked her bedroom door and slit her wrist,

She wanted to love somebody and be loved back, that was her only wish,

Did you see what I saw, Big pain equals a big fall .

© 2008-2011, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

The Caged Affection.

Letter one .

Life is cruel, with events of a real-time movie

I’m locked in a cage, while you’re free without me,

How I miss you so, and everything we ever did,

The smell of your hair, the taste of your lips,

I have 20 years to go so please wait for me,

Should of listened to you when you said don’t go, how stupid of me

I have fallen victim to an unfair trial in this government system,

At night I have doubtfully asked myself, “Where is God when you need him.”

I have faith that he will help me see this through,

So we can reunite again, me and you

The memory of your words keep me alive

I would add more years to myself to just hug you one more time,

This is my first letter I write to you behind these steel bars,

As I write this, I hold back my tears but it’s so hard,

Couldn’t do it anymore, I shredded a few drops on this paper

I’m just scared of this phase of my life, I would cry sooner or later

I send you lots of love in this letter, I expect one in return,

Lots of kisses for you, This is the type of affection we must learn

Until the next letter…I love you so,

I love you forever, I must remind you even though you already know .

Letter two .

I awaited your letter with an open heart, with love

Life without you at my side has proven to be so tough,

I get sad when I miss you so I look back at some of our few pictures

At night I hold on to your memory and I feel you nearer,

Why did you have to go with your friends that day,

I wonder if I would of begged you, things wouldn’t have been this way,

All I did was act careless like a little girl,

Now I’m alone on my own in this cold world,

I want to call it karma but it’s not even that

I should of said something but I held my thoughts back,

Now I find this cruel reality hard to believe,

I miss you so much…I find it hard to breath,

My heart is caged in along with you in that cell,

I wish life was perfect but It’s only doing less than well,

My body misses your touch, I’ll be waiting for you

Even if you’re in there and I’m out here, It’s just us two,

I’m waiting for you …

Letter three .

I read your letter over and over again like a thousand times

and memorized all of the written lines,

That’s all i can do in this cell, it’s so scary

I pray to God to keep in here but with you, my baby

Let me share a dream I had, it was more like a nightmare

That left me speechless and scared,

I dreamt that I had lost you…To you best guy friend,

He convinced you to not wait for me,

I only dreamt it but it hurt me,

I cried in my sleep and then the dream came to an end,

pretty crazy when I know that you could NEVER do that

I shook that feeling off with a laugh,

Enough of me, tell me about the life outside,

Tell me everything, I want to know what’s on your mind,

I feel like I’m off at war and we’re talking to each other through these lines

Just like they used to do in war, waiting for me to be back so we can continue with our lives

And form the family we have always talked about,

People always said we were too young, but we had no doubts

you’re perfect for me and you’re demonstrating it right now,

Waiting for me during this time, there is a God above the clouds,

Not in a million years will another girl do what you’re doing,

So one day we can say that this was the cell our love grew in,

A couple more years until I’m free …

Three months later…

Letter four .

I want to first say I’m sorry for not writing back these past few weeks,

Let’s just say that life has been far from sweet lately,

I no longer live with my parent, there was a problem between us,

So I moved out on my own with a friend that relieved my pain, I’m crushed

This isn’t how I saw myself living, I hate life at the moment

But my friend told me it was an experience, to grow from it

I read your letter and it made me smile, I read it many times I didn’t blink

It lets me know that you miss US and think of me,

What happened to us ? how did we end up like this?

Just a few months back, we were together and we were happily bliss,

Why couldn’t you just listen asshole, you never understood me,

You always said it was nothing , You’re the reason why there’s so much pain in me,

I love you, I despise you but I need you,

There was always something that prevented us from being through,

Now I’m alone, all I have is a memory and friend with me,

How can I move on under the conditions I’m in,

I’m paying the price for your selfish sin,

even after everything that happened, . .  I love you,

Just know that these words don’t explain how much I truly miss you,

I tried so hard…

Letter five .

I don’t know why you said the things you said,

Makes me wonder if your ever lasting love is now dead,

I really feel like I’m loosing you, My Love, My Bestfriend,

Don’t tell me that you’re seeing the end,

I don’t know what to say, tell me what you really feel,

It’s now or never, tell me the truth, keep it real,

I can’t see you face to face so write it down, no lies just the facts,

Tell me now, with the guts that you first lacked .

I’m waiting …

Three months later …

Letter six .

Before I say anything in this letter, know that I love you and always will

And everything I ever told you was real and sincere,

Things changed when I left my parent’s house

I needed someone and my friend was the only one around,

One thing led to another, trust me…I resisted so much,

I rejected it, fought against it but it wasn’t enough,

I’m expecting a babyboy from him, I’m so sorry baby

The lonely nights were scary and there was nobody to love me

But him, I thought about you all this time,

While I was doing it, I only had you in my mind,

Please, I ask you to forgive me for letting you down,

We can still be friends, I’ll still be around

to wait for you, but there will be no US,

I have to my all to give him now, what we had got lost in the dust…

You will find somebody when you’re free I know it,

Reinvent yourself babe, life has you exhaustedexhauste

I promise you something, my son will be named after you, I want you to see him

A few more years, until that day I’ll see you then,

I’ll always love you, please forgive me …

© 2008-2011, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

Inseperable Faults.

The path closes as your eyes do, with rain falling

On the ground and a sadness that is devouring,

This is the wound you have opened with your sharp statements

Of pride, I drip my limited supply of life unto the pavement,

The fresh smell from my blood will be in the air after it’s gone

From the sight of your eyes, The shadow of the blood stains are strong,

Just like the affection for you, breed into it’s purest form

That you guided into your garden towards the rose with the sharpest torn,

Given the sting under the eye of the sun, it fell to the ground,

As a king who lost his life when he was barely enjoying the taste of his crown,

This might be the biggest tragedy you caused in my emotional lifetime,

When you were led by resentment, you stumbled upon a selfish pride,

By the situation both of us present, all I can do in my rightful sorrow is ask why,

After trying adds up to a number of eight, it was never too late, why didn’t we follow up to nine,

Burn the photographs of resentment if they bring you memories of pain,

I won’t judge your action, just know that it lives in the letters of my name,

At the taste of death, I learned to count the seconds for hours,

Gave birth to my thought and amplified my philosophy of horror,

All I wanted from you was to be admire…

© 2008-2011, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

Memoirs Like These.

(Source: frostlegacies)

Rain, Growth And Power.

(Source: frostlegacies)

My Taste Of Power.

For when the time conclusively ends

I would of already made death my friend,

For an eternity that arrives

to be of company to my lonely mind

I humbly thank God for a chance

For giving it to me in my hand

Now I have evened my scale of peace

And my soul feels undeniably free,

I speak for myself when I share my visions,

That paints a powerful scene, My faith has risen

Everyone has forever been inclined to reason a doubt with it,

I put my heart in my lines, the message was lifeless until I put my voice in it,

If I’m wrong may God forgive me and also understand me,

My mind processes my thoughts poetically or so I believe,

I reminisce of everything I have ever written,

Most of it has been shown to the world while the rest remain hidden,

Nobody knows the true purpose for my heartfelt statement,

I want to finally say something about it, they’re just outlets of hatred,

Never did I ever think my fate would include my pen,

First it surprised me when I fell in love and now it did it again,

I’m in love with forming pictures with my words

When times got rough they got me through the storm,

I felt rain, saw thunder, but I no longer felt pain,

The summer lived within me, My Integrity was never drained,

Today, tomorrow and forever will I continue writing the blueprint of my dreams,

It builds upon one another following the rules of a team,

As easy as it may look to some, A lot of effort is needed to use the ink

In my pen, to let the world know how I truly feel,

When you come back from your pain, Breath

That’s when you know what I have felt is real .

© 2008-2011, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

The 2nd Meaning To Eternal.

Before you proceed to read this,

READ the first part to fully grasp the story .

“The Eternal Love”

-This Was Written In 1st Person .

I remember my life

Before I felt my soul leaving my body,

All of my thoughts, my conscious, my flaws,

I was killed by the hands of a person that loved me,

My name will not be mentioned, It hurts to say

I gave my all probably that was my mistake,

A lot was said about me so before anyone judges me,

Know that there’s another side to this story,

Me and him were of the same age,

Our relationship fell because he was playing games,

I have always been patient with him,

He gave me so many reasons to leave him,

But I couldn’t, I love him so much

I told him everyday, he always said it wasn’t enough,

There was a lot of opinions he never expressed,

I don’t know why it must have been something I said,

He was insecure about my guy friends,

even when I told him I was with him, not my guy friends,

I was a virgin and he was my first lover,

It just happened, I have no regrets to cover,

The first time he cheated, I forgave

He begged and begged said he would never do it again,

I swallowed my pride, Yes I did,

Then 2 months later he did it again,

Now my friends tell me that I’m stupid,

Saying I’m not his main girl, I’m just his bitch,

I broke it off with him now I felt dead,

A pain so big I spent my days in my bed,

Couldn’t stop crying for my own sake, my friends spoke bad of him

hoping to make me feel better but I only felt worse,

I missed “US” I had so much reasons to,

But every time I remembered the unfaithful actions I felt more hurt,

I prayed to God to give me an answer to my heartbreak,

Late at night I was tempted to him to just take me back,

But resisted, all I could do was cry,

I didn’t have a heart of steel probably was the main thing I lacked,

For weeks I didn’t have the heart to speak with anyone,

To be honest, I thought my life really was done

little by little I started getting myself together

Even though my heart was broken, I still believed in a forever,

I got along fine, met a couple of guys

But nothing serious mostly just hi and bye,

I would evade seeing him anywhere I went

Even though I saw him from afar hanging out with his friends,

I was scared to even talk to him when that was all that I desired,

If I would of said that I didn’t that would make me a liar,

Now this is where things get critical, I was misunderstood

He did something that nobody knew…

That was the reason for us being completely through,

I found out a little too late though,

I was no longer sad, I was mad I could just blow,

How could he do this to me, after everything that occurred,

I can’t believe it, I was sad over him now I look at the mirror,

I couldn’t explain what I felt anymore

He treated me like a sideline hoe, Just a worthless whore

I hear revenge is sweet and I wanted it bad,

Even though I denied it I wanted him a dead man,

I started changing my ways and assured people I was done

I’m tired of crying, he’s hallucinating if he thinks he won,

My pride took control of my heart and soul,

I had reasons and I let them be known,

What can I say, he changed me with all of his games,

but it doesn’t change the way I feel when I hear his name,

I heard rumors that he was messing with new girls,

Pretended like I didn’t care even when it destroyed my recovering world,

I never saw him do anything I admit it

Maybe I learned a little too late to never believe the gossip,

I was mad, so I made up a rumor myself

All I wanted was for him to feel like I felt,

Alone, destroyed, and dead deep inside

This type of feeling is the reason why I’m no longer alive,

He heard the rumor and wanted to prove it was a lie

So I convinced my gay guy friend to play my new B.f. every time

I was out there where people would see me,

People actually believed we were together

I had no trouble pretending to be with him

Now I wanted to see if he would care

In the day I would play the role of the happy girl with her new B.f.

At night he held my head when I cried, I truly miss him

It wasn’t his fault I should of never brought him up into my mess,

If only I could just ask for his forgiveness,

I must proceed with my side of the story of what truly happened,

If only I would of known this was the beginning of the end,

After many days of my of faking my relationship with my friend,

We drove in his car to the park to talk,

I looked out the window and there he was, the one who broke my heart,

My body panicked but I couldn’t leave

So I told my friend about who was outside as we parked,

He advised me to get it over with and set things clear

As he told me that, I broke into tears,

I calmed down and settled my mind in what I would do,

Maybe I was wrong to do what I did

We went to the backseat and started moving the car,

To make it seem as we were having sex, I fake moaned as we did

I was eager to see what his face would look like

The actions was wrong, I don’t know why I believed I was right,

We moved the car I felt excited, Maybe it was the thrill

To make it look like it was oh so real,

When we stopped, I stepped out the car acting careless

Pretended to pull up my shorts,

He got out too, We didn’t look over at where he was

If I did I would of felt worse,

All I did was hug my pretend B.f. and peck kissed his lips,

And I told him to grab my butt and then hold my hips,

We talked and smiled for a couple of minutes,

Held our act together until he was no longer present

I looked around and he wasn’t there anymore,

All I said after wards was that I wanted to go home,

So I did I got home and all I could do is feel guilt,

I called him to apologize but I had other plans,

He answered with a cold voice so I told him about my pretend B.f.

I let my anger flow and said things I shouldn’t have,

He hanged up on me and I started to frantically cry,

You should of seen me all I could say was “fuck my life”,

I repeated it so many times I wanted to die,

This pain caused me to lose my mind,

I opened a bottle of hard liquor I had saved

Drank it all so quick I wanted to kill my pain,

I walked to the place where my relationship started,

Where he asked me out, such memory, I loved it

I may have lost track of time because I felt drunk,

I started to walking home, I had to maintain and stay strong,

And there he was standing on the sidewalk with a straight face,

Maybe I just lost it but I froze in place,

I opened my mouth, no words could escape

I was scared to death for what he might had to say,

Before anything he offered to walk me home,

with a tone of voice so nice like the one I known before,

At the moment a million thoughts crossed my mind,

I gave in to his proposition without even asking why,

He held my hand and walked me, surprised me when he said “let’s go see your man.”

I didn’t even start to analyze what he said, we went through a short path,

This is what I wanted, just to get him back

Now I had him, holding my hand, we got through the bad,

We walked and walked with none of us speaking a word,

he stopped, smiled, said something and pointed at the floor,

half of me died inside when I saw my friend dead,

He was stabbed repeatedly, his chest ripped open,

My body shook at what was his heart in his hand,

This wasn’t the reunion I was hoping,

I turned around and he had a gun pointed at my chest,

All this happened so fast I couldn’t contemplate,

I asked him to forgive me for all this, it was a mistake

he refused to listen, he started to pray,

I was scared, I told him I had something to say,

His stare penetrated my soul like a gamma ray,

I started explaining myself to him about how all this was a lie,

A car passed by and I screamed at him, “I’m sorry!”

All I remember is hearing him say, “I thought you loved me.”

He killed me that night as he pressed the trigger of the gun,

And I fell to the floor with only one thought in my mind,

“God…Babe…What Have I Done ? “

Now I’m sitting here on my grave,

Waiting on my babe so that I would be saved,

We all commit mistakes…and our lives ended this way .

Now you know the truth,

So please and finally leave us alone let us rest in peace .

© 2008-2011, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

The Aftermath.

How might you survive a dream

When you can control everything involved with it,

The rules of limitation aren’t considered

In this playground, the risk is there so you must live it,

Even in a perfect world

You must face an enemy, the enemy of self,

Your surroundings might be perfect, free of blue,

But inhabited by a person from hell,

What is life at the hands of the seven Gods,

What brings the salty tears to our tongues,

Is there another life after this, I want to know

So I would finally stop pumping air into my lungs,

I might have been dragged down to the depths of solitude

By my own intuition for feeling ultimate health,

As powerful as I could of been in my spiritual body

I never stopped to accept anyone’s help,

If my flesh would one day be cut opened to sunlight

It will only make my vision worthy of blood,

I led my instinct to develop my faith in a dream,

And the reward was me dead, laying face down in the mud,

A few years later the product replaced love .

© 2008-2010, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

Evidence Of Things.

How far is heaven for me to grasp,

How long does forever really last,

Does love have a true name and worthy meaning,

Why do those that sleep believe in dreaming .

How does the white aura erase the black,

When it has the power to do it right back .

Will we ever get the chance to live in peace,

Get rid of the violence that’s been set free .

How, when we’re driven by greed and lust

God guides us but Lucifer lives in us,

I ask these questions you might tell me to shut up,

Why would you be concerned, I think you lack trust .

I trouble myself with wonders that are double-sided blades,

My hand may bleed but the decision is made .

Pour my fresh blood in your own two hands,

This is the pain that made me a mortal man .

My state of mind resides in the realm of solitude,

And my heart calls God for a truce,

Give me all that I truly need,

Present to me an answer for why is it that I may weep .

© 2008-2010, Daniel Resendis. All Rights Reserved.

(Source: frostlegacies)

I will start updating my writing on here again.

It’s been a while :o